"You Only Live Once" video still; The Strokes

Your own personal jesus


Tuesday, March 9, 2004

what's so good about perfect?

Ok. I got an email with a lot of sweet stuff in it. I was agreeing with most of it, like That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss. That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it. That I can't choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it. Those were not the best ones but they were pretty nice. My personal favorite was, That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them. I love that. So I was reading them and like..wow, thats neat. But then. I came upon.. That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them. Ok. This one is great. Know why? Because I dont agree with it. So, tell me now, do you agree with it? Do you believe the person you fall in love with becomes perfect? You might, but I sure dont. the way I see it, and like to see it, is that no one is perfect until you fall in love with them..and then they are still not perfect. But thats ok! What is the fun in perfect ? I dunno, but I like the flaws. I really like them. Heck I might even look for them. See, Its one thing to overlook the flaws and say who you love is perfect, but its another thing to embrace the flaws and love them. Love the flaws, or love the person with the flaws. Whichever. Over time Ive found some uh flaws in people, but if theyre more like traits, why change? Its really hard for me to change whatever I feel is wrong with me. Because in a way, that is who we are. Like..haha.. Im an overly obsessive person. And so..ive been trying not to be like that, but I feel like I cant describe myself anymore. I can, but not completely. The flaws are what make you you. So when I said that heck I might even look for them [flaws] Im not looking for flaws. Im looking for I guess, individuality, a secret, a quirkiness beneath somber a solemn beneath quirk. Sexy. So, if I were the perfect person, what would I say about myself? Uh Im me and I do everything perfectly. Ok. No discussion there is there? But like I was saying no one is perfect until you fall in love with them. Nope I dont agree. OkIll say this sure..they can be perfect.. perfect for YOU. But not perfect. The flaws are also what show you how to deal with the person. Ever think of that? How the heck do you deal with a perfect person?! Um. Why would you WANT to deal with a perfect person? What is there to deal with theyre PERFECT for cryin out loud

Sigh on a different note in the end I guess it just doesnt sound nice, Honey..baby..love.. I met you and there was something wrong with you, now I love you because there was something wrong with you hahaha. Im sayin, if you are someone out there that loves me I dont care if Im not perfect to you. Youre not perfect to me but that makes me love YOU.. every stinkin part of you. Not just the sugar-coated part of you. But for now, for me, Ill be happy if I can just find someone to love me period. Perfect or not.